Reflection is not overthinking. You stumble upon it a mile earlier than you start blurting out gibberish. Somebody once taught you that ‘prying’ is bad but don’t overlook the anecdote, ‘you can chase yourself down that road once in a while’.
Are you scared? The lies you told yourself so you can fall asleep, the ones you told someone else so they would stay, the point of cowardice where you chose to walk away, the people who you did not prioritize, the ‘thank you’s you forgot to give away, the calls you dodged, the times you hurt someone to feed the sadist, the words you used to manipulate someone who loves you, the messages you never sent, the apologies that lay there, down the sun, for some quick dry action.
ARE YOU AFRAID these will come back to haunt you at your moment of reflection?
But mind you, It is not self-blame but navigate yourself to a much peaceful place where you don’t see yourself as an epitome of mistakes and regrets but as a flesh and bone depiction of an ordeal through the desert, up the mountain, down the valley, heading to a shrine made of mirrors that will never break.
The weekend is close by. If you ignore a lot of crap you don’t have to force yourself to do, there is plenty of time for you to ‘Reflect’ and trust me, you’ll do just fine with a little kick in the butt.
~The Nocturnal Muser ©